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I am a lot of things, wife, sister, friend, and aunt but most of all I am a grieving mother of a lost baby girl taken too soon.  This blog is my way of venting and surviving.  I'm trying to find my way back to funny, sarcastic, and happy but it's quite a journey.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Day 3: Daily Rituals

This is a hard one.  I can't really think of any rituals really.  I guess more like schedule? So, I wake up, take my thyroid pill (perscribed to me by my new doctor) I wait for Kevin to talk the dog as I pack his lunch for work. Depending on weather or not he is going to drive into work or not, I drive him to the commuter rail.  On the way home I get a coffee and come home to watch Kelly and Michael or whatever show I had on DVR the night before.  Then I shower and get ready for the day.  I have to admit that since I have stopped my regular 9-5 job I dont have much of a schedule or a ritual so this post is probably pretty boring.

Day 2:20 facts about me

1. I never finished college and worked my way up into project  management for Facilities and Real Estate
2.  I've had the same friends since I was a kid which now makes them more like family
3. My sister raised me since I was 12 when mother died of cancer
4. I never wanted to get married until I met Kevin
5. I'm athiest and have been for as long as I remember
6. My current favorite TV show is the Big Bang Theroy
7. I love anything 90's.  TV shows, movies and especially music
8.  My all time favorite movie is Billy Maddison.  Fowllowed closely by untamed heart, Scream, and The Craft
9.  When I was a teenager I wanted to be a witch.  Until I realized I watched to much tv
10. When I was a kid I was a tom boy and had a purple hockey stick because my mother refused to buy me a boy one.
11. My best friend is male and has been since I was kid.  Until this day I am very picky about the women I hang out with because I get along better with men.
12.  I only knew I wanted kids after the first time I held my nephew CJ.  He is now 5.  I never felt that instinct before him. \
13. Im a shopoholic and should probably go to meetings
14. I run on the prize system.  When I believe I did something good, I buy myself a prize. SEE #13
15.Kevin and I bet eachother things like movie pics.  We bet on things like who will win the voice or chopped
16. Kevin and I say goldbugs instead of goodnight due to an autocorrect mistake when we first started dating
17. Im petrified of mice, fire, knives and also rabbits.  Everyone teases me around easter.
18. Whipped cream and marshmellow make me gag.  I cant even touch it.
19. I'm lactose intollerant
20.I had the gastric bypass surgery 10 years ago and lost 140 lbs.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Back to blogging

It's been a long time since I have felt like blogging.  I still keep up with everyone else blogs but I have little to write about myself.  The other day I came across my blogger friend Sweeping up the Broken Pieces blog and she is challenging herself with the 31 day blog challenge.  I have decided this would be a good opportunity to get back into writing.  So, for the next 31 days I'll be writing about the following topics.


Day 1: Introduction and recent photo

My name is Jen I'm 31 from Somerville MA but currently live in Dedham MA.  My husband Kevin and I have been married for a year and half but have been together for 5 years.  We live a quiet sort of life filled with dinners together, good friendships, lots of movies and he plays way to much playstation.  We have a 14 year old Black lab named Annie.  She doesn't know shes old and often keeps us on our toes.  On Halloween 2014 we found out that we were pregnant with our first child.  We weren't trying and it was a complete shock.  It took a few weeks to get used to the idea but we were very excited.  During the entire pregnancy I had it in my head that something was going to go wrong.  I told my husband that something was wrong every day but I was proven wrong every time we went to the doctors.  We were having a perfectly healthy baby girl.  On March 13, 2014 I had severe stomach problems and went to the hospital.  They sent me home and told me it was the flu.  Long story short, they were very wrong.  My appendix was rupturing and leaking poisonous fluid into my body.  I went into emergency surgery and everything was going well.  On March 15, 2014 I went to the bathroom and delivered our daughter at 1lb 7oz.  She had been born too early and sat in poison for to long.  She lived for 20mins.

I only did a very brief summary of what we went through but if you would like to read more feel free to read my first blog titled Our Story

Since the loss of Lydia Mae I've had my bad days and good days.  I quit my job that I was at for 8 years and now I feel that it was the best decision I made.  Losing a baby has been the most tramatic experience of my life. I am a different form of who I used to be but I continue to try to except the new me and I work every day to heal my heart and not live each day sad and depressed.  This blog has helped me during some of my darkest days.

Here I am with my husband Kevin at Foxwoods Casino a month ago